Notes From A Transported Convict – Mark Lewis

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Notes From A Transported Convict – Mark Lewis

peeler pinched in pox ridden poverty threepenny

upright fed by gluttonous gents tawdry tumescent grunting

and groaning ruffled and shuffled through cesspit cell through court

kangarooed hither and thither wrists chaffing elbow throbbing

by grip and by slip shoulders bruising by walls by doors by stick

sentence passed in the breaking breath of a baby no wailing

a future failing mapped futureless wave goodbye to shit stained

sperm-stained scabrous streets disbelief gurgled in guts

as the first and final ship of my life sailed flailed and swayed

and leaned swayed leaned swayed leaned swayed decks

sprayed with salt slick with sick the anguished oceans bobbing

like a whore’s head swallowing her pride for a stale

crust of bread from rain to sun sun to moon to sun to sun

no food but water too much water piss anointed

water filthy to mirage your face in grotesque eyes

agog groggy but not grogged fetid breath on fetid backs

sweat stained shit filled sacks of anger and bone,

bunched alone liminal mongrel starved got any food got any morsels

got any scraps just the soft fleshy ears nibbled by rats the heave

and heft of the living tomb no room hip to hip the ship

lurches you wash drink splutter gag swallow songs feebly

sung tuneless in sun plangent sorrowed longing for bricks and mortar

of familiar streets shit stained sperm stained scabrous

streets of no tomorrow thoughts a rancid stew

rot moulding in nostrils pores pouring the stench corpse cold

discarded cajoled docking unloading like chattel like cattle

measured notated eyes hair wart scar chronicled counted like goods

to blister tumble stumble fumble splintered streets exchanged

this sweating land the bark of tree the bark

of order the slash of the nine tongued lash

generously gifted to a white-faced master

aproned capped shifted dressed for women’s work

needle numb flax spun rope burned the women’s curse

of this new life the old life carry lift carry lift but at least

not to marry back bent like a dog’s leg fucked in places the seed

would not grow in places where his wife would not

let him go poor sow the bark of those trees rubbing

engorged knees no point in screaming nothing changing get it done

dreaming of turnips tatties gravy the spit roast

hog that I have become more meat than on me

but not more than in me adjust apron shift straighten

cap then back to the treadmill spit and polish the broom the lash

the dripdripdrip about the finger-marked thighs crusting

hold in the bowels hold in the howls the skin waled roughened

not my body just a hollowed shell discarded on alien shores

my nethers neither here nor there not mine nor his nor yours

let the maggots nestle here in that emptied vessel

my mind alone drifting wooden on waves ten thousand miles

yonder in sordid squalid streets of luxury this hotter hell’s

drudgery not mine not shackled here for redemption on Sunday

sin on Monday or whenever he can sin on no hope no past

hobbled hobbling ageless we age all the same in Van

fucking Demon’s land fourteen long years of pain, shame, disease

reward for the milling of a shilling of cheese